I love all of you. I really do. And that's hard to explain to people I know in real life. I've had this conversation more than a few times in the past few months.
"Yeah, I've got this friend who's going through this situation (whatever "this situation" may be) and I'm just really thinking of her right now."
"Oh, how did you meet her?"
"Well... I actually haven't met her but I've read her blog for the past year and now we're friends."
And then I feel weird. Because how on earth do you explain, to someone who doesn't blog (or doesn't read blogs), that when you read someone's blog almost every day, and they read yours, and you share comments and e-mails back and forth, that friendships form. Even if you've never met. Even if you might never meet.
And because you are my friends, when good things happen to you I am so thrilled with you and walk around smiling, and when bad things happen, I am so sad with you. Unfortunately these past few months I've had some blog friends going through some really tough times. Mattie, sweet Sherry's daughter, was stillborn at the end of June, and instead of cuddling her four and a half month old daughter, she is daily learning to live without her. And this past weekend, Erika had to give up her daughter as well.
I am tired and overwhelmed and sad. So in light of that, blogging every thing I'm doing this week has become just too much. I want to record my days with my kids at this stage of life, but this is just not the week for it.
Right now I don't feel like I have any words to share so I'm going to take a blogging break for a few days. I'm not going to post and I'm just going to close my Blogger dashboard tab. I'm going to try and get some more sleep and slow life down a little bit. That should help with being tired and overwhelmed, at least.
If you pray, use the time you would take to read my blog to say some prayers on Erika's behalf. On Sherry's behalf. On behalf of all of us. We could all use more prayers.
See you in a few days.